many mem0ries seems t0 fade away sl0wly.. i dun even n0e wads the truth 0r wads a dream.. things s0metimes seems s0 real yet s0metimes they seems s0 fake. s0metimes i ask myself.. am i dreaming? my mem0ries.. can they ever be f0und back? my mem0ries seems blurred. i cant see them clearly any m0re. when i g0 t0 places. it seems there are much mem0ries there & yet i just cant remember them 0r it seems blurred.. i am scared.. will i f0rget my mem0ries? will i f0rget s0me 0f my friends? my primary scho0l friends.. i seems t0 hab f0rg0tten s0me. i d0nt mean t0.. i dun wan my mem0ries t0 fade away.. s0metimes i feel s0 al0ne..

s0metimes i dun0 if this is the real mii? pe0ple sae : "this isn't the edna i kn0w. euu seems different. last tym euu were always cheerful & crazy & noisy ; yet n0w euu seems t0 be cl0sing urself up.. wad happened? hab things must sae.." i really dun0. is this wad i hab bec0me. ghimcho0n 0nce t0ld mii : "last tym i n0e de edna isnt s0 fragil, isnt s0 weak. last tym de edna is so strong ; cheerful ; noisy ; crazy.." i feel so drained. things around happening are unexplain-able. i dun seems t0 be the edna i used t0 be. i seem t0 cl0se myself up and n0t letting any0ne else in.. i n0e that i am n0t as happy ; cheerful ; crazy ; noisy as last tym. i als0 n0e that i hab been weak ; emo ; faking smile & laughs ; quiet.. bud i really dun0 why & wad t0 d0. can i be lyk wh0 i used t0 be? pe0ple always c0me t0 mii f0r help & i will help them 0r listen t0 them. bud i seems t0 hab n0 0ne t0 talk t0.. i dun0 where t0 begin ; wad t0 sae ; h0w t0 sae.. i dun feel neither happy n0r sad at times. i seems t0 hab l0st my feelings..

bud i still must thanks my friends.. especially ghim cho0n. he hab always be there when i am down.. he is the bestest friend i ever kn0w.. z0ra to0s.. thank al0ads..