i sometimes wonder.. wads the p0int 0f w0rking hard t0wards the things euu wished t0 archieve? missed many things, like shooting, cus of my injured-leg.. didnt get int0 many things because of my injured-legs.. didnt get in to that.. feeling so damn dissp0inted. i am so starting t0 hate my leg. because of it, i missed many chances t0 get into the things i w0rked so hard f0r. becus of my leg, i hab t0 give up things like taekwando, npcc drills, campcraft. these are wad i loved dearly and try my bestest or my best in and w0rked so hard f0r..

now i guess its all d0wn the drain. wh0 will kn0w? no one man. so whats the p0int of w0rking s0 hard? stop telling me that my leg will heal!! i am so sick of that.. cus the doc is specific enough.. it wont COMPLETELY heal bud i can get better. there's a difference! i dont wish to be treated different in any way..

i am so damn willing to go through anything jus to go back to taekwando no matter how much my leg will hurt, i am still willing to train. bud i cant anymore. i will work hard for any npcc things or campcraft things or any activities, bud i guess i shouldnt anymore. cus for wadeva reason i will just be a burden pehaps.