i am so s0rriew. i guess, i really am NOT myself anymore.. i just read yuxuanJIE de blog.. and now i realised, h0w many friends i left behind because of my emotions. now i realised, i hab been building more walls den bridges.

now i realised, how much i did not treasured my friends.. tjiaying, liai, yuxuanJIE, ghimchoon, guanliang and all.. i built up the walls towards them, cause i am to0 afraid to get hurt once again. wad c0uld i d0 to make it all up t0 them? i feel so bad.. that day, saw jie crying.. yet i am so scared that i would make her angry until i didnt went t0 c0mf0rt her. haiis. wad really happened to the real me? someone, tell me.. i am so scared, so scared of myself, i duno why.. and all i did was to built up even more walls just because i was afraid..

i am so s0rriew.. t0dae i gave alot of thoughts ab0ut things.. i miss all the times i had with yuxuanJIE and tjiaying they all. i miss all the times i had with nicholas chee, jeremylim, ghimchoon they all.. thankews nicholaschee, thankews jeremylim.. actualy is euu 2 who made me realised all these.. i duno why and how, but somehow cus of euu tw0, i gave alot of thoughts.. but i duno why, i seems scared to talk to euu tw0 now, i dun0 why.. but i dun wana l0se euu guys as go0d friends..

i am so s0rriew everyone.. i really am.. i will try my best t0 stop building up all these walls..

and i wish to celebrate my birthdae with all with euu..