ytd night slept damn early for the first time, as no one can pei me chat on the phone and plus i was damn damn tired. =x this morning woke up at 9am. had a terrible nightmare. =/so wishing for a warm hug, but no one is here.. haiis. i wished for his warm hug once again but, it will nvr happen.. =/ nvr mind.. haiis. i miss him alot actually..

i feel so empty inside of me. =/ i feel so feeling-less at times. pls dont come and tell me that euu like me or wadeva. it will only make me scared..

i cant remember clearly wad happened last tym, i am trying so hard to remember the times i had with dongwei, jiajun they all, but i can only remember the bits and pieces, not everything.. i tried to remember the times i had with yee liang, winston they all, but i cant really remember at all.. i tried very very hard to remember the memories i had with zora and cheryl, but still, all my memories are blurred. many pe0ple would think that not remembering things are go0d as euu wont feel hurt. but when euu really had a bad memory and euu dont really remember the mem0ries euu had, it feels empty inside, it feels hurt inside. will anyone n0e this feeling? trying my best t0 recall my mem0ries but to only make my head damn pain for many days.. =/ i am so scared that i would forget my friends, i am so scared that i sh0uld lose all the mem0ries that i had with them.. i dun wana ever forget them, thats why i hab a blog and diary.. but i am still scared that i would forget them.. and i dont want to. =/

anyway, gtg and get ready to meet sean and lizhi to take bus to downtown east le! yeappies! (x daddy gave me money to spent! =p den we will meet enzhang and kenny there. (: ltr at night hab tuition with zhe hao and jeremy. =) i am go0d de okays jeremy?! i nvr pangseh euu lei! hahas. (x gtg, at night den post more. =)

these wounds wont seems to heal.. x/3