i am so scared for things to happen AGAIN. sometimes pe0ple sae, once bitten, twice shy.. now i understand its meaning. i am so scared of her. f0r the things she did. i am scared that once i am close to someone again, she will again "take" them away from me. i am so scared and terrified deep inside. i am not as strong as euu think i am. i am so scared to be once again hurt deeply.. i nvr did wana let euu go, nvr wana let go of anything. but i am simply scared.. i can act like nothing is wrong all the time, like i am happiew when i am not. but i really dun wish to get hurt anymore..

thinking abt it, i habb been more quiet each day. i dont talk much anymore. take the Bangkok Trip for instance, i dun talk much at all.. tinking abt it all, i am scared to fall in love, scared of getting into a relationship, scared of trusting pe0ple. why ; cus many things happened and i know that i have been to0 naive..

i am terrfied of falling in love with euu.. and afraid of losing euu.
why am i crying because of euu? are euu that important to me? but euu seriously made me felt the hurts again..