ytd went to Kovan at 7:05pm. meet weilong, hanwai, zhe hao and jeremy. we stayed outside the Heartland Mall at the chairs there. we chat and talked ab0ut weilong's birthday party chalet while waiting for that ming xian. he so BIG wors, we all wait for him. hahas. (x den abt 7:45pm, he finally came and we all went to buy sweet-talk before goin up for E-Maths tuition. (x sat with zhehao and jeremy while, mingxian, weilong and hanwai sat in front of us. xD and zhehao and jeremy next tuition will wear same type of clothes, while maybe me, weilong, hanwai and mingxian might wear the same colour of shirt! (x

today, woke up at 11:30am. heard that my k0r and 1 girl kn0ck each other while playing frisbee and b0th of them were sent t0 the h0spital f0r stitches. =/ haiis. went t0 visit him at the h0spital. =/ he scare me like hell larhs!! =.= hope he recover so0n. =/ came home and did more research on my Total Defence Silver Badge Project and Hation Heritage Board Project. =x even b0rrowed bo0ks for reference. =x did my homew0rk and studied A-Maths, Social Studies, E-Maths, Economics.. didnt hab any appetite for fo0d at all these days. =/ haiis. went to meet sean at h0ugang p0int at abt 2pm. saw jeremy. (: after awhile i went home. =) and went online blog-sh0pping t0day. xD i am so gonna start saving for the things i want.

went 0ut at abt 7pm again. went t0 buy dinner and on the way talked with kuku on phone but after awhile, i hanged cus i not in a mo0d to talk. and went t0 see the stars in open-field again. the sky is so clear t0day. (: luckily my parents are out t0 the company's dinner so they wont be home early. (: the stars are damn beautiful.. i love the STARS. reached home at abt 9pm. =x my k0r is already home..

th0ught abt al0t of things when watching the stars. why am i feeling this way - FEELING-LESS.. at times, i felt n0thing at all inside. all i felt inside was empty-ness. but why when he talked to me, i could feel the sudden pain inside of me? the feeling of wanting to cry but cant cry feels bad. the feeling of not sad, yet not happy is confusing. i hab f0rg0tten h0w feels like to be l0ved by an0ther pers0n. i hab f0rg0tten h0w it feels like t0 l0ve someone. it just feels s0 empty, and it hab always seems like something's missing. but it d0esnt matter anym0re. cus i kn0w, i still hab the ones i l0ve, my friends, my family. and i kn0w they l0ve me, alth0ugh i hab f0rg0tten h0w it feels like, i kn0w that they are always there f0r me. and i appreciate what they did alot, i cherish them al0t to0s. i hab learnt many things. (: i LOVE all of them. (:

and ytd when at Whitesands Mall shopping with vanessa, lizhi and sean, we went to ARIES shop and i tried to find the anklet that he once b0ught f0r me, but i c0uld n0t find it anym0re. oh well, must be 0ut of st0ck ba. =x no idea why disapp0inted? anyway, talking abt that, its been al0ng tym since i w0re an anklet. pe0ple w0uld just say, buy anklet y0urself larhs, but the thing is, i d0nt wear un-meaningful things. like the heart-necklace i always wear, its a gift from my k0r thats why i wear it. if i buy it myself, it d0esnt mean anything to me and i w0nt wear it. =/ dont understand also nvm ba. (:

i'm going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everythings perfect,
act like its all a dream, and pretend that its not hurting me at all. x/3
; no one understands how it feels, do they?

& some pictures taken ytd and today. (:


when the sky gets darker and darker..


zhe hao and me. [ euu CANT see us ] (x


my shad0w, the one that hab always been walkin with me..