t0dae had the LMSC course.. was not as b0ring as i expected it t0 be.. anyway, t0dae w0ke up at 6:30am, washed up and everything and to0k my temperature. 39 degrees. T.T haiis.went to drink a cup of milk, but ended up vomitted it out.. went to sleep for like 5minutes. at abt 7am, got ready and daddy fetch me t0 scho0l.

reach sch, lishan, yaohui, chunghong, guan liang and ghim choon were already there. so went to changed with lishan 1st. den slowly everyone came. after that, we sit the bus to Deyi Secondary for the LMSC course. saw someone, or rather that someone was like sitting at behind my row only. i seriously duno how i to face him.. if i go close, i am so terrified that i would get hurt deeply. when i dont go so close to him, i felt weird and alone. i seriously duno wad i am thinking, wad are my feelings.

anyway, lunch didnt eat much cus no appetite at all. vanessa fed me eat like 1 spoonful of rice, and 2 vegetables. but i ended up goin to the toilet and vomit them all out. =.= haiis. felt damn weak n0rs. seeing that pe0ple are w0rried for me, i ended up being hyper and happy even when i am still sick instead of being glo0my and sad abt things. haiis. dun w0rry yea? i am fine. i guess.. =/

must thanks dickson so much.. as i cried during the lecture. i cant hold back my tears. seeing her hurt. seeing someone being closer to her hurts even more. thankews dickson, for comforting me and listening. thankews. i know, i shouldnt cry but i really cant hold back my tears. i duno why, i duno why i would cry just cus of someone.. its been long since i cried. why? why must euu sae things that are obviously not true? euu said euu are not that close to her, but thats not wad i sees. it hurts. why am i crying just because of euu. i duno why at all.. =/

the LMSC course ended at abt 5:30pm. tml must go to Deyi Secondary by 8:30am. and i am still the overall IC. =.= haiis. anyway, after the course, was h0ping that someone can pei ime go home but so0n i already can guess dao, he goin home with her ba. =/ nvr mind, thats wad i told myself. but i guess i mind, i duno. mixed up feelings. haiis. anyway, now someone must be with her being so happiew ba, but why am i feeling so sad here? ask me online, i online-ed and like being an idiot to wait, why should i and why am i doin this? i duno. =/ feelings damn terrible right now.

and Goshawks! (: tml meet at opposite Deyi Secondary de basketball court, best by 8:15am. everyone hab to gather 1st before going in. if its raining, den just proceed into the scho0l 1st. thankews! (:

i am feeling so alone. no one was there when i needed them, not even euu, when i thought euu w0uld..


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