would anyone know, would anyone be there?

i made a decision ytd, i told chengzhang abt it cus he helped me ytd when they were talking abt him. wanted to tell limfei abt it toos, but by the time he replied me, i was asleep. wanted to tell weiguang but he seemed busy. i remembered that i promise piggy yanhao before that i will be strong and happy, so i made the decision and its final.

it doesnt matter, even if i am pretending to be happy
cus no one will know if i am pretending or not.
so much things are kept inside my heart,
i want to say out but i dont know how
and i dont know who to say to.
心里好难受 , 心好痛 .

i hab always thought love is effortless, just like a petal falling to the ground cus it is simple and pure and it will always end with a happily ever after.

sometimes, somepeople doesnt realise how much they can mean to me, especailly lishan, tjiaying, lizhi, cherie, sharon, vanessa, jasmine, yanhao, limfei, weiguang, guoren, enzhang, chengzhang, marcus, weiqiang, sean, winston. of cus they are many more others toos. and sometimes when i say " oh, im fine. ", i wish that someone would look into my eyes and say " tell me the truth ".