thanks sharon, tjiaying and kelly for talking to me. and i cant believe, its been long since i cried myself to sleep. i cant help it. [ how would euu feel if your parents dont trust you for about a year plus? ]

went for EMaths tuition and Chinese tuition today. so sorrys to Guan Liang and Kenneth for cant going to eat with them cus my mommy suddenly came. so sorrys. Ying Bin cut her hair, and i cut mine toos. :x the both of us got our haircut. and we so totally look weird. :x went home after Chinese tuition.

its so hard to pretend. everytime i pretend to be happy, everytime i fake up a smile, i just end up feeling worst inside till i dont hab anymore strength to pretend anymore. i wish there was someone there, to comfort me, to let me lean on, to let me cry on, to let me turn to without having to pretend that i am alrights when i am not. i am so terrified deep inside which i dont know why i do. i just wish that there was this someone to be there. i dont wish to pretend, i dont know how long i can last.

thanks chengzhang for everything.

there is NPCC training for me tmr. that shall be all.

i am feeling tired.


yingbin and me. [ with our NEW haircut ]