was really feeling well but went for NPCC training as well cus i didnt wana stay home cus i know its just gonna hurt more. so i went for NPCC but didnt go for the morning parade cus i cant even stand up. stand for more den 5minutes, my legs jiu very weak. :/

i dont know what i want now. all i know is i want you, and things to go back to the way it was. but issit still possible? i want to know the truth, not any lies. it hurts me so much that i am on the verge of breaking down. i was once able to endure and carry on cus i had you. but now i've lost you, i had no strength to go on. why did you have to do this to me. it hurts so much inside now. you are now so faraway from me. :/
please tell me how you really feel and what you really want.

thanks KELLY, for advicing and concerning.
thanks SHARON, for comforting and for the hugs.
thanks LISHAN, for the hug and concern.
thanks CHERIE, for the concerns.
thanks LIZHI, for the concerns.
thanks GOSHAWKS, for all your concerns and encouragements.

issit time for me to turn and walk away, pretending that i dont love you anymore when i love you so much? it just hurts so much deep down. i dont want you to leave and i dont want to leave you either.
if i leave, i will regret and i dont want to, but wat about you?

all these tears i cried, all these pain i had, will they ever go away?
all i need is you, but i've lost you and you wont come back, will you?
yet i am just sitting here and waiting for you to come back, when i know you wont.
when you leave me, a part of me is gone. x/3